Inferiority isn't being Humble

There was once a little girl, who learnt that a christian should be humble and not proud. So as time goes by, whenever people ask her of her greatest strengths or what is she good at, she would always replied, "i've none." As she grow older and started schooling, she started to see that her friends around her have various outstanding strengths and talents while she's only good at certain things which aren't obvious or aren't good enough when compared to others and slowly, she began to feel inferior and think little of herself.She tried to improve and even compare with her classmates, and whenever she did something better than others, she would remind herself always, to be humble, not proud.

Life went as per normal till one day, her christian teacher asked her personally, "Have you been baptised in the Holy Spirit yet?" The little girl shook her head, "I did tried asking in prayer, but nothing happened and i don't feel anything." Her teacher replied,"Its not about feeling anything, but receiving. When I was young and was praying for the baptism of the Holy Spirit, i had no one to pray for me nor lay hands on me. I prayed and I received it" The little girl held his advise and began to pray to God about it. After some time, still, nothing happens.

A few years later, she read a passage in the bible that says something like this, 'Unless you are born again from the baptism of the water and of the Holy Spirit, you will not enter the kingdom of God.', she was deeply troubled. Her faith began to shake and she was'nt sure about her salvation anymore, she feared that when she die, Jesus would say, "I do not know you". But during this time, the most unfortunate events also happened almost at once during this period of spiritual warfare, grief, and also her close-friends(at least she thought they were) began to backstab her, calling her names and a hypocrite for being so forgiving and understanding. Making her health worsen, but not the last of all, her only form of leisure became a pressure, her music groupmates begin to stress her trying to get her to improve by laps and leaps so that she could be able to perform well. These period was the toughest times in her life and she felt so inferior, lost and depressed that she could no longer think with a sound mind. She was like a living dead.

It went on over a year when she finally let God to heal her inside out. A message was clearly given to her, in her heart, to her dream, "You have been washed by the blood of Christ, you are already wash whiter than snow. Come out, come out of the dark room that you have locked yourself for so long. You may not see what talents you have now, you might not see what's the future for you, because I'm still moulding you, painful as it may be, but you can be sure whatever the outcome is, its my results to you." She finally woke up.

Holding on to the promise God gave her directly, she begin to drill her foundations on God's Word and many other areas which she didnt bother to laid a good foundation in the past. Soon, God begin to show her as she started to examine herself and her past and she concluded that, inferiority is not being humble, but a silent weapon that kills and destroys faith.

No faith, no hope, no focus
leads to no life.